I know Canada Day is like so eight days ago but I'm falling behind here. Apparently my two weeks notice meant nothing as I am still on a schedule and still picking up the odd shifts here and there. It's mostly for other people's appointments but I left wondering since when have my doctor's appointments, weddings, birthdays and other such events ever mattered during my employment? Oh well.

Canada Day and camping pictures are sitting on my lappy which can barely hold it together right now so I'm on my dad's computer that runs super slow. The font is all huge too.

Also, I can't even have a moment alone in my room to change, the second I turn around Treehouse is on the tv, my bedsheets are ripped off and their kid's toys spread from as far as the eye can see. Brian is already talking about having kids but I'm already living that dream and I am serious when I say not yet.



Jackie, did you know there's a giant cock on your drive way a-hyuk!

Found at Boathouse these will be my only bought pair of shorts all year probably. The kids call them Loki shorts.

Tripped out to Wal-Mart to try to find a bathing suit, was not successful so I settled with the one I bought at Garage. Meh. Picked up fireworks too, this one says it Shoots flaming balls, I wish it did, what false advertising.

Best bud from high-school, what a beauty she was and still is. We've been through a lot together including holding the hair back, break ups and sign stealing. She's living up in Ottawa now guess I owe her a visit.

I'm always the odd one out when I go out with babe-city.

Kelsey's dessert selections aren't for the faint of heart, I don't remember if we finished these. My cholesterol hurts just thinking about it.

This is Kenny, met him through Jackie such a stand up guy. He drives an ambulance and he told us that the grossest run he had was with someone who had a lung infection and threw up in the back. He invited us over for a dip in his pool, it was freezing. His mom came out and chased Jackie and Ashley with a hose cause they wouldn't get it, hilarious family.

Oh there's Kenny. Naked. And dead.

Best way to feel like the fattest whale alive is to spend a day with these girls, holy crap they are fit it's not even fair. I could never pull of Ashley's one-piece.

Gotta love the timed shots.



Even my tan can't make up for my non-skinny sigh.



Sadly those mountains were far from being blue.



Kenny has a knife collection it's something special I tell you.



Note to self, stop waiting Canada Day to buy fireworks because we always get stuck with the Wal-Mart selection of wimpy crackers. Three bags of these did us good though. I ended up kicking on towards everyone and the house, sorry guys just trying to make the memories.

Nope, nothing weird going on over here. This was about one hour before we went home, I'd say around 2am. My eyes were fluttering. I had planned to sleep in till 1pm the next day cause it's such a rare treat but I got called into work. Fancy that.

Summer is tits, my tan is making a full recovery. So many summers of standing inside instead of enjoying the sunshine. Nothing like weeks in front of a sweaty hot grill in a gross chef's jacket to white out the o'naturale. But after a few days of fun with friends I'm back with my family and that's pissin' on my party. Mom left dad and my youngest nephew for three nights and it's already wearing me out. Tomorrow is Hera's vet appointment, she's getting fixed because I can finally afford it now. So wish we got this done sooner but the money was never available and the procedure doesn't come cheap. Anything for my babies I suppose.

Did you know I am gonna be older this coming Monday.
23. Can I cry now?

Bad news bears over here, turns out someone had put Brian on a course on the 6th when he was supposed to be coming home on the 5th for his leave. I'm getting over the hump of extreme disappointment because I only found this out on the 2nd. That's military life for you.

What upsets me most is that I picked my quit-work date on that day solely for that reason but now I will be sitting on my hands until the 25th day. It's only like 20 days longer wait. It's not Brian's fault and I'm trying to keep my chin up about this so I can hear as little "I told you so's" as possible.

I'm in a very weird part of life right now, I feel as if I've dismantled myself my whol existence right down to work and living, the way I go about my day has totally flipped. My family life is overlapping my social life and now I can't remember who I was when I lived by myself in a two bedroom apartment. This uprooted feeling is so strange and unsettling and I'm narrowing in on it so much I can't find my footing.

It'll all make sense when Brian comes home. When I actually see him. Nothing in life goes they way you planned it, so good thing we never solidified any of our summer plans. We're learning this game quickly.


I left my camera at my friend Kenny's house, there are some Canada Day pics on there but I can't remember of what really, I know there's pool pics but I don't know how good they are, aka I don't know how fat I look in a bikini. Actually not so much fat as unfit. This guy needs to go biking again. Maybe it's the lack of sex. TMI? Let's take a trip down memory lane, these are all my fav pics from some Julys of the past years:


This one is from the Canada Day K-Rockin The Rideau concert at Fort Henry where I learned that volunteering may or may not involve sweating my ass off and being deaf. Bedouin Soundclash's sound guy was hitting on him during their set.


Kingston Family Funworld memorabilia. I haven't lived in Kingston long enough to remember when it was down by the lake, haven't been up there at all this year I wonder if it's still run down. Secretly I hope it is.


My 21st birthday shitshow, the karaoke torch has been extinguished I don't know why but no one wants to do it anymore and I'm to wussy to suggest it in fear of getting sighed at. I wonder if I'm getting too old for that partying all day and night business, yes and no. Let's bring it back everyone, we can do it. Together.


This is from my first time meeting Dan, when he came into Kingston to buy some of my paintings, he's a very generous guy and I was sooo nervous meeting him in my city. We met in Toronto briefly at a MG concert blogwkard meetup thing. See what I did there?


Taken last year at the very last sunset ceremony. I borrowed Brants huge camera to take their yearbook pictures of which I have been sitting on since then, no one had contact me about it till right before I left for my trip to Vancouver, and that's all I'll say about that. This is a bittersweet moment for Brian and for me too, he really was attached to the fort and his job, everything about it is so involving the kids really got immersed in their roles but the alienation of it on my end got a little testng sometimes. Thanks for all the memories, FHG, and for keeping me out and drinking every Wednesday night, my liver hates you forever. <3


I actually fell when this picture is taken, and my mouth is huge. This day was gorgeous, hanging out with Jackie is always a fun time no matter where we go.


Random kitty picture.


This is the only 22nd birthday picture that made it to the blog, most of the pics are unflattering of both me and the partypeoples and it was too soon to talk about it. Basically I ate only sushi drank a million drinks, threw up, then went to the stripclub, my shirt was pulled off, it was craziness. I'll tell you in person about it if we should ever meet, it's too much to write down.


Tonight Meagan, Kevin and I got together and threw Andie a little bit of a surprise party that was in a Disney Princess theme where all of our gifts had Disney Princesses on her. She was def. surprised and I wished I had my camera for it because it was so cute. And then Kevin farted when he dropped me off at home and it stank like garbage.

This ends another blog post from my bed which is getting cozier by the minute. 20 days and this frown will be upside down or else.

I've been extremely tied up with babysitting lately that when it's time for a break I just want to sleep. I don't think I ever did this much babysitting when I was in high school since I have never really been all about kids, you know? I mean I like them alright but I can't seem to get them, get into their heads. I grew up in a foster home where bad behavior came paired with a good spanking and where the punishments fit the crime. Now the kids learned that most threats that are given are empty ones and that adults lose their will because sometimes giving in really is easier. Such bad habits we are teaching them. I actually stuck to my convictions and denied ice cream as a punishment for not coming out of the McDonald's Playplace when I called like18 times. I guess I can be a little harsh on them, they've been through a lot but I'm the aunt, I gotta be tough, fair, and fun all in one.

Still not ready to make me some babies just yet, having too much fun being a big kid myself.



Sparking up my creative eye, it feels good to see again.

I forgot to add these kids on my last post, they were pretty adorably "bad" talking about high school parties and drinking, makes me remember when I did all that stuff only I didn't dress all skater-y. ps It's not eavesdropping when they are yelling crystal clear.

I'm still pipe-dreaming about taking a photography course. Or maybe a painting course. I didn't do that painting, my brother did. It looks a lot like my sister-in-law who passed away a couple of years ago. I had a dream that the person in the painting was trying to kill me too, so... yeah, that.

Hera and Loki have discovered the vent in my room leads to the vent in my parents room and that they can move pretty much anything I try to block it off with. They still don't get a long with the other cats. So that brings this family zoo up to five cat and a dog, which I would love more if they could all just get along.

My youngest nephew Graeme has me well trained to draw him pictures so he can colour them. This is to replace the hundreds of pictures my dad prints off for him. My drawings suck but Graeme's getting very good at drawing because he practices every day, aw.

Five more days till I'm handing in my work uniform. I already shed some embarrassing work-tears about quiting, there is probably nothing worse than crying at work. Once those tears come thy can't stop and there's no where to hide to just let it out, ugh. It's almost over now and I gotta tell you it feels surreal,something I've wanted for so long is happening and I'm conflicted. I guess I will just feel everything I can about it all at once, thanks screwy emotional problems.

Brian's coming home soon too and we have so many plans that are up in the air, gonna make sure we make the most of our time.

Sometimes I hate what the internet can do. Everyone needs a good dick and fart joke now and then but the cruelty and anonymity can ruin a good thing. And then there are times when I love the internet so many nice comments from Tony's Ask Fridays, it really eased the pressure hearing/reading that it's an exciting time as well as a scary time for me. I wonder if I'm really ready for the next part of my life to happen. I guess I will wait and see.


The countdown is on! I have about 10 days left til I am a freeloading bum and till Brian comes home. He gave me a little scare the other day and said his course might have started early so his leave would've been canceled but thankfully it was confirmed that he's still coming home. I held this in because I knew if I bitched I'd get the same old finger-wave.

I'm trying to save some money so we can have a little fun traveling while he's home. Getting pretty excited! I also gotta save up for Hera to FINALLY get in to be fixed. I am worried it might be too late and she'll still do her annoying in-heat-habits like howling at night and being a skank around Loki, ew.

Here's what I did Tuesday night since I was too busy working and then being sick in bed yesterday. Erica and I had a random hangout that was supposed to be all about running errands but it turned into something like this:



Really liked this guy the best.

Really liked this trampy zombie keychain, it would've been perfect for the Kingston Zombie Walk. Which apparently is happening on my birthday, July 13th. Does anyone know if this is legit or not, because I will be seriously disappointed if it's like 5 facebook friends walking around with facepaint and moaning.

Erica and I met up with Kevin after his shift and he was going to join us for lunch when we discovered that all of Princess street's power was out. As we got farther down Princess we stumbled upon the scene of the crime. Apparently a transformer exploded and the powergrid went down. So many gawkers and such, it was pretty intense.

This man could've been from the Whig, check out the size of his camera penis haha.

We decided that because all the power DT was out we'd go over to Wolfe Island for some eats. Tey are cut off from Kingston and surely have their own power aka the giant wind turbines that are scattered along the island.

Oh sorry Hollywood, didn't mean to but in on the important ring.



Erica's ensemble was pinks, and purples and melted my cold heart.

I get offended by people being offended by the sight of the wind turbines. They are rad and environmentally sound. People call them an "eye sore" because they are scattered around the island but and wouldn't make sense to have them in a straight line, wind doesn't blow in one direction. I didn't understand wind at all until that day, but now I get it.

Oh Wolfe Island, it's been since last summer right? I've only seen a very small portion of it which is the main street, and a couple of houses. I hope to make it out to their beach and check out one of the turbines up close.

If you ever make the ferry out to Wolfe Island I highly recommend the Wolfe Island Grill. Erica suggested it, I've never been and I wasn't disappointed. The inside of the place is pretty dive-y but the patio is beauty.

I was actually just thinking about Kevin the other day and how I missed his antics and low and behold we ran into him. I want to thank Kevin for getting a girlfriend AND still being awesome and avaliable, that's some wicked multitasking.

Conversation topics included wedding planning, hilarious wedding stories, and unknown pregnancies. Kevin said some really nice things about my photography maybe it's about time we formed a partnership and I printed some pictures and actually did that photo-hangup thing I have been dreaming about?

Chicken fajita wrap with sweet potato fries, so good and the price is right. There's more fancier pubstandards in the menu too, can't wait to take the boys there for bison burgers.

Heart the shirt, reminds me of a dress I wore all the time in Kindegarten, only mine was purple.

We had some time to kill before the ferry made its way back. Taken by erica, by my direction heh. I call this Maiden Waiting For Her Husband Lost at Sea. Lake.

I love being on the water everyone is so friendly, there's no dead time you're just going and there's no possible way to lay on the horn we we all just wave and smile at each other, god I'm so sentimental right now.

We had a discussion about facebook pictures and how we all try really hard to not put up fugly pictures of each other, there are some people who try harder than others but there are those who could try a little harder. I think I do a good job in not taking and posting crappy pictures of people.

Now when I hand you my camer and say take a picture 80% of the time I mean of me. This is the 20% acception.

Erica and I walked back up to her apartment in the dark, the power was still out and everyone was just hanging outside. Some restaurants had generators and people were eating by candle light, so cute. One man asked me if I was Cuban or Spanish but in a very dirty-old-man way.

Kingston is a grand place even when there's a big power outage.

Bad news in the celeb-world today, losing both Michael Jackson and Fawcett, it's a reality wake up. You can only start to live forever once you passed on. Blue-feelings aside, I'm looking forward to the rain and a chance to laze around and drink tea. I'll be having a busy weekend working and babysitting for two nights in a row. Now that summer is here my usual tight-ship routine with the nephews will slide. Banana splits for dinner? Why not.

So much for posting every day huh? I'm in the process of moving back in with my parents right now and between that, work, and finding time for eating and sleeping I haven't had a lot of time to organize my thoughts and tell you about my days. So far I've had busy days and those are the good days.

This post has taken me days, I had planned on hitting the publish button but I got suckered into babysitting the youngest nephew and I can't have my back turned on him for a moment. He won't let me. The summer has come at last, even with the heat and the light it didn't feel like summer till Solstice was over, this is my first year in a while without Solstice plans but I'm making up for it this summer now that I won't be working I will be doing some fun outings and real relaxing. Eventually.

The night after my last post, which feels like forever ago, I went over to visit Erica and Jason. There are days where I need a break from the family and the kids so I join the real world downtown, aka Brantica hangouts. Erica had some left over couscous and a porkchop, so delish.

There's a new addition to the Brantica family, his name is Obi and he's a Chinese Crested. It took me a while to figure out how to pet him but he's a big suck.




I love their backyard the mostest.

We went for a little walk in Lemoine's Point trying to find out if it would be a nice spot for Brant & Erica to get married. They're going the non-traditional route, I think the church wedding will always be the backup but it's so nice to get married outside. I don't have that privilege unless I want to be disowned from the family.

We were so lucky to have seen these deer grazing.




He jumped out of erica's hand right into my pocket, must be love.

These kids they be crazy. The water was so warm and I would've gone in too if I wasn't wearing a dress.

It's true, I have friends. Here's one! Walking at Lemoine's Point in the dark is terrifying, but the fireflies were worth it.

I love my dress and it's not crazy-long like my butterfly one. It's not something I would wear out in the woods again.

I moved both Loki and Hera over to my parents house for many reasons. I pretty much live here now anyway as I am slowly but surly neglecting giving up the apartment. The bachelor novelty started to wear off after the landlord incident, and that it's effing lonely without Brian there. And please don't remind me about Brian going away and working and me being by myself I am well aware of what's going to happen. By the time he's done his courses he will have been gone a full year just for basic and training, I think I can handle 6 months.

Anyways, the cats are here with me right now, it's so nice to have them around. My parents have three cats and a dog so this is a fullhouse right now. When Brian comes home I'll collect the kitties and we'll live in the apartment for a while, while packing and whatnot. It's bittersweet.

It was my dad's birthday this past weekend, the big old 67! Happy birthday dad, I know you say you loved me better when I was six but I love you no matter how old you get. <3>


Awesome birthday present from the kids to my dad.

I thought I was holding back on the cat pictures. This is a neighbour's cat, Reese, who was stuck in the tree in our backyard. I had to pry him off the tree while the kids were screaming and misquitos were biting me all over. Never a dull day in the burbs.

I actually enjoy doing some yardwork here and there because I know that means I can relax on the swing in the backyard. It's about the only place you can get some peace and quiet.

SEE?! I tell you no lies.



Hi mum, get used to this.

The Canadian Tire petting zoo is one of a kind. One goat, one pony, one peacock and two chickens. And one llama, how could I forget.

To add to the excitement of my summer days, my parents neighbour Dave took me out for a ride on his motorcycle. I wish I brought my camera with me because the views we saw were incredible. I think this will help me encourage Brian to get his M, and a motorcycle because driving one is one thing but being a passenger is something I can get behind.

My catchup is over, there's still more coming. Check out my Summer 2009 Flickr photoset for the ones that didn't make this cut. There's more to talk about but my little eyelids are closing as I type, there's so much internet to catch up on but I'm having too much fun in the sun I guess.

Only 11 more days till I am officially unemployed and it's finally hitting me. Better late than never.